June 6th, 2007

Jonathon Delacour wrote a wonderful essay about walking based, in part, on earlier writings by Dave Rogers and Ethan Johnson, as well as his reading a book on Werner Herzog: Herzog on Herzog.

In the post, Jonathon tells of a series of photos taken by transcribing circles on a map of Sydney neighborhoods, walking the circles, and taking pictures of whatever happens to be lying on the ground at specific points. He attributes the quality of the photos less to the mechanics of the camera and approach, and more to the walking that took him from spot to spot:

That my (imagined) motivation for walking differs from Dave’s or Ethan’s matters little. Walking the dog, walking to lose weight, walking to make pictures… ultimately, our walking is a means of — as Herzog puts it — moving through [our] own inner landscapes.

This seems to be echoed at Whisky River, who quotes John Muir describing walking through the woods as moving not from the indoors, out, but from the outside, in:

I went out for a walk and finally concluded to stay out till sundown, for going out, I found, was really going in.

I've put my camera away for the summer, focusing, for a time, on walking for health and contemplation rather than always on the constant search for the next great picture.

With the advent of the summer heat I walk in the early mornings, in paths around town because to go out into the country is to court more bug bites. Each year I react more strongly to these, and take longer to heal, and I wanted one summer without such. I walk primarily during the work week, when I am more or less alone. On the weekends, even early in the morning, paths are packed and contemplation does not co-exist well with overheard cellphone conversations.

I listen to music turned down very low; an eclectic mix of songs pulled together into my "walking soft" and "walking hard" playlists. The music helps me keep a steady pace, but the low volume doesn't distract; I remain equally aware of interesting thought and movement in the bushes or trees.

I've noticed on my recent walks so many different insects and birds and other critters–more so than when I was taking pictures. I think by looking for static images to share, I was disregarding the moving diorama of which I am an integral part. I became observer, then reporter, rather than participant. Struggling with camera, bag, and lens; peering at the light, staring intently for this bird or that–I would have missed my chance to see sphodros rufipes–red legged purseweb spider–which is both rare and endangered.

I would have also missed the tiny chipmunks, scurrying about under last year's leaves, foraging for food. Or the bunny carefully eying me while partially hidden by bush, leaf steadily disappearing into mouth. Like magic. Like bunny appetite.

My camera with the big lens attracts no end of dragonflies–I think I look sexy to the bugs with that big gawping thing in place of my eyes–but tends to scare the birds away. Especially while out on walks, when I whip it around to take a photo. Missouri is full of dense woodland, where it's easy for birds to hide and because of this, they are typically shy. Sudden movements startle them, and you lose opportunity to take photos. More than that, though, you lose the opportunity to just stand still and enjoy their color, song, and beauty. Or their behavior.

A bird is most beautiful when you experience it as a whole: song, flight, color, movement, and interaction with the world. This morning two stellar jays, who have claimed the woods and have followed me closely, all week, like the intruder I am, had another target for their dives: a red-tailed hawk that landed not 20 feet away from me. I watched as it settled on a branch that dipped beneath its weight, dappled light picking out cream, rust, and gold on feathers that looked remarkably soft. "If only I had a camera", I thought to myself. But then would I have captured or missed the moment when one of the jays dive bombed the larger bird, grabbing at the hawk's tail feathers? Or the expression on the hawk's face of perplexed bemusement at these aggressive, smaller, pain in the butt birds? The swoosh of its takeoff, as it unfolded wings in a graceful arc and swirl that reminded me of the old movies and the dresses of chiffon that would billow out gracefully behind the dancers? I swear, I could feel the movement of air pushed away at the downbeat of wings. Imagination? Errant puff of spring wind? Blue jay flying past, seeking yet another target to threaten?

Sometimes during the walks, I don't see anything at all but the path stretching out in front of me. I'm lost in a day dream of what ifs, what could have beens, what will bes: Jonathon's inner landscape. Dozens, both mighty and meek, have danced to my whim in these waking dreams–perhaps even some of you. I once composed an entire play about weblogging over a winter's set of walks.

Of course, with the end of the walk, when one is sweaty, tired, and thirsty, one is forced to put away such malleable images and contemplate mundane reality: everyone around me refuses to be pushed and prodded into the characters of my internal plays. Instead I must bounce against each stubborn independence, like a pinball against bumpers: bounce, bounce, bounce, triple score!, and hoping life throws the flipper at just the right moment.

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Charles - 12:53 pm 6/6/2007

I think I mentioned something like this to you before, Shelley. I described an exercise my photo professor assigned, to walk out your front door, take an arbitrary number of steps in any direction (like 20 steps) and then stop and find something to photograph from that spot. The goal was to find something extraordinary about a spot you must have passed a thousand times before, to see what was in a place that you frequently walk by without looking. I admit I would take a different strategy than most when doing this assignment, I would use a macro lens, you can find something interesting almost anywhere when you're only a couple of inches away.
Anyway, you hit on an interesting observation, there seems to be a common disconnect between the photographer and the subject. The camera intermediates, so we experience our photography of a subject rather than the subject. There is a famous anecdote about this, a cinematographer on a WWII aircraft carrier was filming planes landing when a bomb dislodged, the bomb slid along the deck right into the cameraman and exploded. The film was recovered undamaged and when developed, the film showed the cameraman kept the moving bomb focused and centered in the frame, he was so engaged in the act of filming that it didn't even occur to him to leap to safety.
I saw similar problems in sports photojournalism, it is common to see a photog get obliterated on the sidelines by a football player, the photog doesn't see the personal danger while looking through the lens. Wham! I noticed this too, while doing sports photography, I would be so intent on looking for the action that I wouldn't even notice the score. Sports photogs say that if you shoot a game, just forget about following the game itself, you can either watch the game or shoot it, but not both.
Anyway, there are other strategies to deal with this, especially when you shoot the random scenes you encounter in daily life. My strategy was to carry my camera everywhere, so it becomes a part of you. This way, you are not "going out on a shoot," you are always ready to shoot. You start to integrate your "seeing' of photography with your normal everyday way of looking at the world. This is a lot trickier than it sounds.
Your description of walking with a music player also raises some interesting points. I remember when I was a student in Japan, our teachers used to have a fit about the students walking around listening to music, rather than opening their ears to the spoken language around them. We were paying big bucks to go to Japan and immerse ourselves in a foreign language environment, only to shut ourselves off from it by keeping our ears full of music. I agree, some of my most vivid experiences of learning Japanese are little snippets of random words spoken by strangers as I passed by them in the street.
I've been thinking about this more, as I started an exercise program of walking for 90 minutes at a time. At first I started listening to music, but it was hard to find music that matched my walking pace. There are programs that will sort your music library into beats/minute so you can pick music that matches your pace. Some people go to elaborate lengths to pick music that increases and decreases in pace as their workout progresses. I don't do anything like that, but I did notice that the pace of the music had more effect on my speed than any other factor. I didn't like that. I was reminded of an old remark from one of my painting teachers, he said he didn't like listening to music while painting, it "informed your painting." He meant that you would subconsciously move in sync to the music while painting, which disrupted the speed of your painting. He said he preferred to listen to radio talk shows, particularly rabid right-wing talk shows like Rush Limbaugh, the irrationality of their words would shut down his thinking process and alllow him to free up his subconscious. I thought that was rather weird.
But I decided to follow his advice while I went out walking, and I listened to audiobooks while walking. There was no natural rhythm to the spoken text, unlike music, so I tended to walk my natural pace. I turned in consistently faster times while walking my laps, but then, my goal was speed in a timed, measured course, and the recordings were designed to distract me from the pain in my ankles, the sweating, and the exertion (I was racewalking).
Well anyway, I guess the point of all this is, Be Here Now. You can distract yourself if that is your goal, or you can take off the headphones, ditch the camera, and listen to the chirping birds and the buzzing dragonflies. Or you can pick up the camera and be deeply engaged in shooting. But whatever you are doing, experience that experience, don't mistake it for some intermediated version.

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What a great narrative, Shelley. I feel almost like I just took a walk with you.

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I think we walk at different times for different things in different spaces. I used to walk in San Francisco much like you are now walk in St Louis. But I came late to the digital photo craze and am just now getting my feet wet. I walk now to snap photos … then look and see what i can learn about them … see them on the map … i call it digital awareness. What do you think about my piece Ducks Swimming in Sewage Treatment plant?

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Zo - 5:32 pm 6/6/2007

Sofa-bound, just now, your post is a marvellous read in so many ways. Such graceful writing …and I got to take your walk! What a gift to be able to write that way. And no, you werent imagining … those were hawk wings pushing the air. I've felt… well, turkey vultures … in the same way. Those are big, powerful wings.

Thanks so much!

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Shelley - 9:29 pm 6/6/2007

Charles you have several good points. I guess when it comes to walking, photography, anything, each of has to determine what's right for us at the time and follow the course. Right now, I feel 'quiet' and that reflects in wanting to take a break from photos. As for the music, sometimes that can liberate one to find that inner landscape.

Sterling, Zo, thank you so much for kind words. Zo, sofa-bound?

Seth, definitely a different duck watching spot.

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Charles - 2:58 am 6/7/2007

Sorry to ramble on so. I posted that and then realized it is probably bad blog etiquette to write a comment that is longer than the original post.. ha..

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Shelley - 6:50 am 6/7/2007

Charles, no, I'm always delighted when a person is moved to make a long comment. I should do a longer response, but feeling a little under the weather right now.

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Ethan - 1:06 pm 6/7/2007

Thanks for the mention. I have been thinking about taking the camera along on my walks, because walking around the neighborhood is conducive to being more observant. I have seen pretty amazing things in such a small patch of town, such as a squirrel spread out on its belly on the sidewalk. It got up and moved a few feet away when I walked by. My oldest dog loves to do the "full flat belly" thing, and I assumed that squirrels were too skittish to be that relaxed.

A few weeks ago I looked up and made eye contact with a hawk. Stuff you can't do in the confines of the car.

There are moments when I'll see something and kick myself for not having the camera, but then again, aren't memories good too? You can't film it all, but I suppose we can enjoy it tech-free.

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