Year: 2004

I left late yesterday, with the day already ending; tired and numb from the trip. The traffic was light, scattered along the road like crumbs on a path to follow.

In my rearview mirror, I spotted them first: a line of semis approaching me fast. I’d seen this before–a series of trucks moving as one, with road cleared of trouble ahead. Normally I would pull to the left and wait for them to pass. This time, though, I waited for a break and popped my little car into the queue.

Into the night, over hills and around corners a line of nine semis broke the night and the law. Nine large trucks moved as one from lane to lane, passing this slower car and that.

Nine semis, and one little Ford Focus.

It was a ballet of wheels and motion as the leader would pull out into the passing lane and then the truck behind him, and the next, and the next. The truck ahead of me was metallic with orange lights at the top; ahead of him, a large moving van; ahead of him, dark green with black writing, I think. Behind me rode a plain white truck and behind it was darkness—it was the end of the line.

We drove to the west as the sun began to set, a bright orange ball that burned the prairie around us. Past fields fill of cicada whose sound echoed behind. Past other cars who quickly pulled to the left, intimidated by nine determined semis traveling all in a line. Nine semis, and one Ford Focus.

Through the rosy glow a line of lights spaced just so. I wondered if the semis resented my intrusion, this little golden bug among great gods of steel. But they gave me my space and waited my move in the chorus we played, as we weaved and we waved, and I think they must have thought me cute. A mascot, perhaps.

Finally the ride tired and I wanted the peace of the night. I moved to the left lane, leaving a gap to  my right. The white truck that had been behind me hesitated, as if in encouragement. Then, with a shift of gears, it leapt into the space and pulled ahead. I watched as nine sets of red lights, all in a row, wound itself into the night and vanished from view.

I am going to make a poem out of this, you wait and see: the ride into the night of nine big semis, and one little Ford Focus.

I’m about to head out to Bloomington. We have to move my Dad to a nursing home today as the assisted living home has said that the care he requires would cost upwards of $6000.00 a month, none of which would be covered by Medicare or Dad’s supplemental insurance. But Dad is a tough old bugger (see, he’s moved up from ‘old fart’), so he’ll weather this, or at least give it a good shot.

In the meantime, I’ve been enjoying a couple of books from the library, “The Humor of Kierkegaard” and “Thank You for not Reading”, both of which have been delights. I also watched the movie “Calendar Girls” last night, and giggled throughout. This simple, lovely little movie demonstrated that getting older is less a matter of skin and muscle and gravity, and more a matter of humor and style and strength of purpose.

I believe this movie should be a required gift for every woman over 45. And for every man over 20.

Yesterday, in spite of green herons and kind wishes and the sound of needed coins falling into the alms box, was a very stressful day. The news about my father was difficult to hear, and this was compounded by a fight I had with my roommate. We rarely quarrel and part of it was my growing dislike being dependent on him, though he has never been anything but kind and understanding.

I am going to be spending most of the latter part of the week driving back and forth between Indiana and Missouri, but this time I’m going to take more breaks during the drives; otherwise they’re too tiring. I could stay at my brother’s, but frankly, the drives are a way for me to absorb events and re-aquire my equilibrium. Be prepared for photos of the roadway along the way.

I would lay my head down today and cry, but funny things keep intruding. Yes funny. Ha ha ha ha, funny.