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Writing

The Crystal story is back online

I was able to recover the hard copy pages of the Crystal Story, fomerly known as “A Girl and her Rocks”. Somehow in all the moving I made a few months back, I blew away the MT database for the site, and have to hand edit the pages.

Eventually I’d like to move these into a WordPress weblog, and create a new style for the pages, but you can see the rocks and read the stories online now.

Including the following, a story about amber, and a man named Kristof…

Coming home from the park tonight, I had the windows rolled down to catch the evening breezes, and the music cranked loud, enjoying being out of the house and away from the computer. I was on autopilot, not really paying attention to my surroundings until I pulled up behind a dark bronze colored car at the spotlight. The license plate read KRSTOF.

KRSTOF. Kristof. A name that evokes images of dark gypsies with mysterious ways, brilliant red sashes holding hair back from unnerving black eyes. I peered into the back window of the car but the glass was too dark and the sun against it to bright to see anything more than a shadow of a head. A male head. Of course.

When the light changed and as we drove, I thought about this man in the gold car, with the name that rolls across your tongue like fine chocolate or the merest wisp of fine cognac.

Like me, Kristoff is a hiker; however unlike me, with my walks along simple paths close to home, he’s traveled all throughout the world: hiking the fjords in Norway and the hills of Scotland and Spain. He speaks with a slight accent, the product of his early youth spent in Europe, as the son of a university professor who taught medieval history.

His face is lean and dark from the sun, and wrinkles form grooves down his cheeks and a single line between his eyes. He’s is in his late 40’s, but age sits on Kristof as lushly and caressingly as the dark, sable soft mustache sits over his thin lips.

His hands grab the leather wrapping of the steering wheel, fingers long and slender but strong; gentle hands with calloused fingertips, a legacy of years of playing classical guitar. Around his neck he wears a silver necklace, weighed down by an extraordinarily carved amber leaf, held in place by intertwined silver vines. The pendant was a gift on his 40th birthday from his mother, an artistic and ecentric woman who used to make him soft boiled eggs sprinkled with chives and dotted with caviar for Sunday breakfast.

His parents are separated, and have been for years; though apart, they still remain close. There is love between them and always will be, but it’s not enough to overcome their need to be free – a need that chafes at the bonds of daily cohabitation. As soon as Kristof was old enough, they talked with him about this need to be apart and from that moment he alternated his time between them, content with his odd but satisfying family.

Kristoff’s father is retired, living in Denmark and doing research for a book on Margaret, Queen of Denmark, Norway, and Sweden. Margaret, a queen in a land dominated by men, was gifted enough to capture the hearts of the people and keep peace in her homeland of Denmark; strong enough to extend that peace through marriage and alliance to include Denmark’s neighbors, a rare moment of unification for an area with strong regional ties.

Kristof’s mother is visting Russia, searching for fine specimans of baltic amber, the stone she uses for all of her jewelry. At one time she used other stones, such as onyx and opal and lorimar, but after her first creation with amber – the very pendant on her son’s necklace – she would work with no other material. In Moscow, she meets with an old friend and over cups of strong tea served in tall glasses held by delicate silver filigree, they talk of rumors that another piece of the famous Amber Room has surfaced. Entirely crafted of fine amber in different hues, the Amber Room was a gift to Peter the Great from the King of Prussia, and they say to walk within it was like bathing in pure sunlight. The room disappeared during the War, stolen by the Nazis and some said destroyed in a fire, others said at the bottom of Baltic Sea when the ship carrying it was sunk.

As much as he loves his parents, though, Kristof’s mind is not on them, Margaret, or amber. He’s thinking of a trip two weeks ago when he was visiting a close friend who lives in Maine. They had spent a fine day out on a boat owned by his friend’s brother, sailing about the bay with the Atlantic breezes cool as they blew through Kristof’s thick, dark hair; the sun warm as it touched upon the glint of silver at his temples and in his mustache.

The boat was trim and sleek and the gathering of friends and family was warm and friendly, made more so by another guest, the cousin of his friend’s brother’s wife. He had noticed her as soon as he stepped on to the boat, a woman with chestnut hair down to her shoulders softly framing a face lovely, but not beautiful. She had a light dusting of freckles across her nose that he only noticed that evening when they walked along the beach and he bent down to meet her face tipped up to meet his. The moonlight and the golden glow of the antique streetlight next to the beach picked out her soft grey/green eyes, a hint of laughter and something else, something more subtle, reflected back at him.

In the morning, they shared strong, rich coffee made smooth by sweet creme, and spread blueberry jam on fresh, still warm muffins. The day promised to be another fine one, with only faint wisps of fog curling around the trees by the shore. They ate on the porch, sitting in rockers worn grey from years in the salt air and smooth by the bodies of past visitors, occasionally tossing crumbs to the seagulls that shamelessly begged at their feet.

Kristof remembered her soft curves and generous mouth and the blue-green tang of the ocean, always the ocean behind and around them; but more, he remembered her laughter and how well their words met and melded into crystaline phrases he could still recall. He told her about autumn in St. Louis, looking at her from the corner of his eye as he spoke about the deep greens of the hills turned into the same brilliant colors of his mother’s collection of fine amber. He also made sure to talk about nights filled with delicately fried catfish accompanied by dark beer, and cool, blue jazz. His words were both a promise and a lure, and he wondered whether he should wait until he got home, or pull over then and there and call her on his cell phone.

At that moment, Kristof turned into the left turn lane, and I pulled up beside him and then passed, eyes forward and on the traffic surrounding my car.

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Weblogging

And now a word from our sponsor

I’m working on converting the last of the old Dynamic Earth articles I plan on salvaging: the four-part Tale of Two Monsters, covering the Loch Ness Monster, and the giant squid. A lot of work to port these– they are large articles.

Sorry. Couldn’t resist.

I’ve always been rather proud of ToTM and pleased with the connections I’ve made to such a wide variety of people because of them: from official Nessie watchers in Scotland; to the world’s premier cryptozoologist in Maine; to marine biologists and giant squid fans all over the world. Regular as a dental appointment, once a year there’s a Swedish nutcase who sends me an email calling me a bitch because of my criticism of one of his so-called expeditions. When next he checks in, and sees the ability to leave online comments, he’ll probably expire from the excitement.

That will earn me chocolates in some circles, I can tell you. Good chocolates, too.

See? Even in the days before ‘weblogging’ people would connect with each other online, based on mutual interests and the same hooks that pull people into weblogging commenting now. Weblogging didn’t invent community–all it did was pave already existing roads so that more people could participate, more easily. And the hooks I talk about have less to do with the skill of writing, or the beauty of the page or the sexiness of the technology, as much as they do with putting something into the writing that makes others want to respond. If I could determine exactly what it is, I’d make a plug-in of it, and win that Six Apart Plug-In contest.

Well, maybe I wouldn’t win the Six Apart Plug-In contest…

Still, writing does matter. Sometimes too much.

I was thinking last night, before I went to sleep and after watching my cat experience that very mild earthquake to the north, that there are times when you want people to reach out to you based on something other than the merit of your argument, the strength of your words, the rightousness of your cause. You want them to be a friend, and just say, “Howdy, you’re cool” even if you sound like an idiot online.

I mean, a complete and total idiot. The kind you see in the store every once in a while and think to yourself, “God, I’m glad I’m not married to him/her!”

People in the flesh can see when the time is good for intellectual discussion over coffee or beer, or when someone just needs a hug. Tears, screaming, swearing, and throwing pillows helps. Online it’s not so easy – you have to earn those hugs. You have to have the better argument; you have to be slammed the hardest and the most unfairly; your opponent should be more popular, or at least nastier; and on top of all this, you have to spell correctly. I mean, spell correctly for land’s sake.

In other words, you have to bleed online–but do so with great style.

But even assholes need a hug sometimes. And I bet even Glenn Reynolds needs an instapeck on the cheek from time to time.

And can you imagine a tearful scene like the following:

Man: You don’t love me, you never did. I’m just dirt, aren’t I? Efluveum on the bottom of your feet.

Woman: You spelled it wrong.

Man: What?

Woman: You spelled efluvium wrong. It’s E-F-L-U-V-I-U-M. You used an ‘e’.

Man: I’m crying my heart out here, and you’re checking my spelling?

Woman: People who want to be taken seriously take the time to check their spelling.

Man: You’re a bitch, you know that?

Woman: Troll!

Isn’t this just the most bizarre shit at times? If you could see the expression on my face right now, you’d know exactly what I mean. Think Tom Hanks and Meg Ryan in “You’ve Got Mail.”

And no, it is not a chick flick.

Categories
Political

Dick Cheney and the F Word

Recovered from the Wayback Machine.

All this use of the euphonism, the F-Word, and references to potty mouth since the newest Dick Cheney fooflah.

It’s ‘fuck’ people. F-U-C-K. And if you’re worried about being filtered at libraries and in grade schools, ask yourself: do you want to write something that’s equivalent to a G rating from Disney? Say the word, accept the filter, be proud of your raunch–it has history (but it’s not an acronym). If you can’t say it for yourself, say it for your country.

Anyway, I was over reading Ralph’s own colorful discussion on Cheney, and I had to drop him a comment that I just can’t get all that fired up over this issue. To be honest, I think “Fuck yourself” is about the most honest thing Cheney has said in three years.

I mean, compare it to the following:

“I had other priorities in the 60’s than military service”

” Simply stated, there is no doubt that Saddam Hussein now has weapons of mass destruction. “

“Iraq could decide on any given day to provide biological or chemical weapons to a terrorist group or to individual terrorists,…The war on terror will not be won until Iraq is completely and verifiably deprived of weapons of mass destruction.”

“The plan was criticized by some retired military officers embedded in TV studios. But with every advance by our coalition forces, the wisdom of that plan becomes more apparent. “

“We will, in fact, be greeted as liberators. ”

I’d much rather have Cheney on the floor of the Senate telling Senators to go fuck themselves, then using the Middle East to demonstrate exactly how it’s done.

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Burningbird

Some science coming up

I have several science-based essays I’ve salvaged from Dynamic Earth that I’m going to post. Without their domain, the writings have been cut adrift but they’re still good. Well, ‘good’ is relative – the science discussed in them is still valid.

Going through these, I’ve forgotten how long I’ve been online, and all that I used to do BW – Before Weblogging. Really the only difference between writing to a web site and a weblog is that the latter has more formatting rules, more feedback, and a hell of a lot more stress at times.

I didn’t limit my topics in my pre-weblogging writing, covering everything from book reviews, kites, computer technology, giant squid, pets, hurricanes, and my own personal thoughts and viewpoints on just life in general. I wrote on all topics but religion, thinking that this was too taboo a topic to put online when I didn’t know who was reading me.

(Now I write about religion from time to time. Nothing like weblogging to loosen one’s tongue long enough to get into serious trouble.)

Of course, those who have tolerance to match their deep spiritual beliefs might say that when I’ve written on trees and oceans, programming and sadness, I have been writing about religion.

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Weblogging

With thanks from a lady

Though my own participation has been based on pleas expressed both in anger and sadness, and the circumstances tended to distort the message, I did want to send a quiet thank you to some folk who wrote in response to the issues raised about gender and perceived bias in weblogging. Then I will drop the subject, because I’m not doing it justice.

Riba Rambles wrote on on the original gender-based comments, and Seth Finkelstein wrote about the “lamentations of the women”.

AKMA should appreciate the Biblical notation after he was handed a difficult task, which he fulfilled with great delicacy – finding balance in the recent fooflah. More than that, though, he gave me a great deal of reassurance that the world hadn’t suddenly changed overnight by acknowledging that the introduction of gender was an issue that did deserve some discussion. The silence this last week, justified or not, was perhaps the most difficult event I’ve experienced in weblogging. It has permanently altered my view of this environment. Whether this leads to growth or not, I’m trying to figure out.

However, not all were silent.

Ken Camp also spoke out, and he has a wonderous way with a rant – and I mean that in the most complimentary way:

I will be posting a new sort of stance soon. My take on the blogosphere. And you all can read it or not. You can link or not. You can care or not. You can exercise your digital common sense. You can compliment all the various emporers on their finery. You can stick your head in the sand. But you can’t stop the changes underway.

Oh yeah, things are changing.

And don’t say troll like it’s a bad thing. Yeah you.

I wrote in comments recently that there’s a difference between a flame, and writing from outrage and anger. I think we’ll be seeing more outraged writing from Ken.

It’s hard, though, to maintain outrage here–always some new toy or game, some new political folly or technical wonder or… oh look! Keep the drunk man from falling over!

Mischief to Data had a great title on a related post: Lock Your Doors! Shrieking Banshee Women Invade Weblog Communities! . That’s me: Shrieking Banshee Woman. Too bad I don’t have space for a tagline now, because that would be my new one.

Mischief quoted the comment that started much of this discussion, and I was surprised to read in the post’s comments a person saying:

Actually ghani, upon reading his statement again, I’m unwilling to make a judgement on whether it was justified or not, without seeing some representative samples from the male and female haters.

If the men said “Man, it sucks that you shut it down, do you know an alternative I can use?” and the women said… just use your imagination for that one.

Then he might have a point.

Contrary to popular myth, the condemnation was more evenly divided over the sexes then recent discussions imply. Just some of us made a more tempting target.

It’s like when you play Dodgeball, or Red Rover – you target those you deem the weaker to make your blow seem more significant. What you’ll often find, though, is what you perceive to be weakness is nothing more than quiet strength.

Tracy Kennedy, otherwise known as Netwoman, also responded with a call to be active on her own:

Women should continue to voice their opinions, but why should we do it on our own? Shelley’s right, where are the responses from men in regards to this? Bystanders to sexism. It’s unacceptable. Step up the plate folks! Take responsibility and accountability and SAY something!

Jonas Galvez apologized for not saying something sooner because English is a second language for him. I thought he did okay, myself. He and those who commented in his post.

Jeneane specifically mentioned the fact that no one did answer my questions about the breakdown, and the redirect problems. I also would have been glad to help, and I do know something about DNS.

Finally, my South African brother, Mike Golby, also came out with a response that is wonderfully Golby – graphic and all. But I loved his unrelatedpost on the Jazz Singer even more than his defense. If you haven’t read it, you need to.

If I missed anyone, it was unintentional–I use Technorati to find who is linking to me and sometimes I don’t check it as often as I should. Please let me know and I’ll add a link.

I didn’t thank folks this last week, and perhaps I didn’t need to because this issue is beyond me, the person. So let me thank you, instead, as a woman among many.