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The power of staying home

After reading about Halley’s and Liz’s reception in Seattle for Search Champs, and in particular the lovely goodies they’ve received and the receptions they’re attending, I had some wistful regrets that I declined my invitation. It would have been nice to be pampered and treated as a respected guest by a software giant like Microsoft. It would also be nice to get a free copy of the Window’s software, as I can’t afford to buy it.

However, in the end, I am not unhappy that I stayed home. This week I’ve been inspired in my own work on Wordform, and also in my writing and though I’ve been recently sidetracked into a discussion that I now regret, for the most part I am content with how I am spending my time. I have a possible job interview tomorrow, I have finished another book proposal to start shopping around, and I think I’ll go out looking for dogwoods later today. Or clean the house, and this act has its own rewards.

I have never been much for traveling to events such as Search Champs. I have been to events at Microsoft in the past, but these were more meeting with a small group of techs and maybe going out for pizza afterwards — their treat. I can understand Microsoft inviting people to see their products, provide feedback, and hopefully both sides benefit from the experience. But for me, in this circumstance, I can contribute just as effectively from home.

It’s somewhat the same for wanting to meet people. There are some folks who I have ‘met’ in weblogging who I want to meet in person someday because they, personally, have become very interesting to me; I would be unhappy at not having the chance to meet with them at least once. Consider it a form of beer truck test, but for meeting people rather than project management: I would regret not having the opportunity to meet these folks before the proverbial and preferred vehicle of blame does its dastardly deed.

(The only reason why I’m not out now on a frenzied world tour is that I am convinced of my own immortality. Still, I’m not sanguine about the continued existence of any of you.)

On the other hand, I wouldn’t want to meet people just because they are webloggers, or popular webloggers, or even because we have shared either passion or acrimony on a specific subject. In fact I would find that rather than enrich our shared experiences, personally meeting with those who I have exchanged strong views could actually detract from the exchange.

For instance, I have a strong interest in the lowercase semantic web and folksonomies and have written about Clay Shirky’s work many a time in the past–almost universally in disagreement. However, I have no particular interest in meeting him, and though I wouldn’t run from a meet, I wouldn’t actively seek one out, either.

Some might think this is a mistake, and say perhaps we would be less critical (or indifferent or antagonistic) toward each other if we were to meet. I can’t speak for Mr. Shirky, but I find that my personal detachment from him actually enables me to write, as I will, on a particular subject without worrying about the possible consequences to a ‘relationship’. More importantly though, our detached and somewhat adversarial position with regards to each other forces me to consider every word and every concept I put down in opposition. I know that any slip, incomplete thought, or fuzzy brain storm I put into written word is going to be subject to the intense, and most likely, scathing review; if not by Mr. Shirky, by others who are his supporters.

Some of my best writing has been in disagreement with Mr. Shirky and other supporters of folksonomies and RDF-less semanic web activity; not necessarily because they inspire me to write, but because they inspire me to write well–with a great deal of caution and careful consideration.

The same can be said for attending technology conferences and the like. Though I would enjoy meeting with my peers, and understand the critical need to network at times, not doing so does not negatively impact on my technical creativity; nor does it inhibit my exchange of ideas and concepts with others. (Especially since the better organized conferences provide the presentation material and even audio and video recordings of some, or all, of the sessions.)

I do miss presenting at conferences, as this is something I enjoy. However, I don’t need to present at, or attend conferences or other formal groups, in order to have a rich existence; or to achieve respect for my work, or to feel respect for the work of others. As long as I have access to their work, they have access to mine, and we share an active form of communication, I am content.

The power of the internet is that it gives me the power of staying home.

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Scoble and balance and heartbreak

I wrote this almost 20 years ago and stand by it, 100%. Recovered from the Wayback Machine.

I was not going to write again about Matt and WordPress, because I didn’t see that there was any point: I wrote my two posts, I said my piece, people either agree, disagree, or say to themselves, “Matt who?”

That was before I saw the following in my aggregator this morning, from Scoble:

Shelley gives us the silent treatment for not being harder on Matt

Shelley Powers channels Jon Stewart and gives those of us who didn’t take Matt Mullenweg to the mat for his response a lot of heck with her “silent treatment.”

That’s the meme of the week: that bloggers aren’t tough enough on each other. Well, sorry, everytime I’m tough on some group or some person I get heck. “Be nicer” is what I’m told. I figured that linking to Matt is enough. I start my morning by assuming that my readers are smart and can make up their own minds as long as they have access to all the information.

I also looked at it and saw that Matt was being treated pretty harshly already, and didn’t see that responding with an even harsher comment would help anything out.

In his post, I wrote the following comment:

You completely misrepresented absolutely everything about that post and what I said.

You did so by such a margin that I have to assume that this was a deliberate attempt to smear me and weaken the message of what I was saying.

You didn’t link to the first message, where I said we should not treat Matt harshly, and then picked and tweaked what I said in the second until you found the message satisfactory to you — that Shelley is picking on that poor _boy_ Matt, and let’s put the bitch in her place.

And you most likely did so because I was critical of you in the past, and you never forget and you never forgive.

All you’ve done, is proved out everything I said in that post.

Every damn thing.

What I said in both posts is that people make mistakes, sometimes big ones, and we shouldn’t make them grovel or beg for forgiveness or go through hell as ‘punishment’ because the community feels ‘betrayed’. Why? Because it’s about damn time for the ‘community’ to grow the hell up and stop putting such faith and complete trust in each other.

Here’s a clue for the clueless: none of us can live up to all of your expectations. You’re going to be disappointed at one time or another in any one of us. There are no saints here, and the so-called heros pick their noses and step in dog shit, just like everyone else.

On the other hand, there is nothing wrong with questioning an event, or to be concerned, or yes, even angry at an event. Being critical of an action taken, or post written, or opinion given, is not the same as condemning the person, and shouldn’t be treated as such because to do so shuts down the conversation! It is the tool of the manipulator, the weapon of the outclassed.

In regards to Matt and the link farm, too many first reactions took the action and used it as wholesale condemnation of Matt, the person, and WordPress the product and community. Doing so discounted the good work that Matt and the same community had accomplished with this product, and the balance swung, wildly, to the negative.

On the other hand, legitimate questions were raised, and concerns expressed. People didn’t know whether they should keep the WordPress links at their site if the pagerank was going to be used in this way; Matt’s credibility as a leader in the fight against spam did take a hit, and the impact on this on the effort at large is a good point to discuss.

More, the perception of open source and free software, as it is popularly known within the weblogging community, was also impacted by this action–the question is raised that if open source efforts must resort to actions such as these to raise funds to keep the project going, what is the hope for this as a viable project type?

What happened with Matt and the WordPress organization’s web site has reprecussions beyond just this person and this site, and discussing this is a legitimate thing to do.

But rather than address these, we were given an odd message about buses and experiments and Wikipedia (oh yes, bring that word in, with all of its positive karma) not to mention vague slams at those who brought these issues up: references to never asking for money from your readers (i.e. Kottke), or let’s bring Six Apart into it, subtly remind people of that old controversy.

Did Matt say he was sorry? Yes he did, but in such a way as to generate more questions, than answers. But you can’t bring this up in the “Wordpress community” — to do so is to a) be a freeloader who doesn’t pay for the work of others; or b) an asshole who doesn’t understand that what’s important is forgiveness and after all Matt is a nice guy.

There is no balance in any of our communications. We’re either on one side or another, either with the ‘good guys’ or we’re bad. If we’re critical, some flock to our sides, and others villify us; but then if our opinions go another way on another action, we ‘antagonize’ those of our supporters, and the flow around us shifts again, as allegiances are broken and sworn.

Every time I express an opinion, the movement of bodies coming and going from around me damn near knocks me off my feet.

Each person must define their own expectations about those who read them but for me it’s this: if you read my weblog regularly, you should be doing so for the quality of my writing or the pretty pictures or the helpful code or the issues raised or even that you like me and see me as a person who you want to share a beer with–any number of reasons other than being completely aligned with my views and having absolute faith and unquestioning trust in what I write. Because if you read me for the latter, I’m going to break your heart someday, and laugh while you cry.

My two posts: 12.

Scoble’s two posts: 1 and 2.

Update

I do regret that I wrote And you most likely did so because I was critical of you in the past, and you never forget and you never forgive in the comments–didn’t add to the conversation, and added an unnecessary emotional context. Regretted as soon as written — which is why I provide the post-comment editing facility.

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Danny Ayers: Man of steel

Aside from being a terrific dad to several cats and a cute dog, including my god-daughter Sparql, and a good writer, patient advocate of RDF, artist, and writer, Danny Ayers is also a very good hearted man.

It’s an honor to know him. I haven’t met him, but it’s still an honor to know him.

Thanks, Danny. For dropping some positive words when this tired old writer needed them.

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Search champs and timing

I received an invitation to be part of the next team of MSN Search Champs, and I have to decide by end of day today whether to accept or not.

I am flattered that the MSN team considered me good material for this group, and interested in the whole process. However, this is a real critical time for me, and if I were to get a job or work of some kind, I can’t afford to take time off in mid-April to attend the required Search Camp get-together.

At the same time, we talk about more women being involved in these efforts, and here’s my chance to represent women in technology.

I wish things weren’t so uncertain now, but they are. I’ll probably decline, but I believe I’ll go for a walk and think on it, first.

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Conversation

Recovered from the Wayback Machine.

I am working on a follow up post on tags and folksonomies, but the going is slow, not the least because I’ve been helping folks with trackback spam and various other technical problems. Too much so at one point because I think I deleted good trackbacks along with bad in one instance.

I will say that the most effective defense I’ve found is to turn off trackbacks and comments on all entries over one week old. From the attacks on my various weblogs, all have been focused on older posts. Unfortunately, it looks as if the older version of Movable Type, 2.6x, disregards this instruction and lets some or all trackbacks through. WordPress stops them dead when the status is closed. I’m not sure how other tools handle this.

I’ve always liked trackbacks because it gives people a chance to become part of a conversation. Even if you don’t specifically address a post in your writing, if you think the readers of the post would be interested in what you wrote, you could send a trackback and help the conversation flow. Referrer tracking in Technorati and other tools doesn’t provide this.

However, since people aren’t using Trackbacks for this purpose, maybe it is time to close the door on this functionality. Pingbacks, too. Especially pingbacks, because these are nothing more than link referrers, and this kind of information can be found in Technorati.

To return to the new tags/folksonomy post, it threatens to be even larger than my previous one. I know this is against accepted practice, and I also notice that it plays havoc with the weblogging technology; but I’m enjoying the approach of finding other people’s entries on the topic, and grabbing their links and the bit of text I wanted to highlight and putting it into the work in progress. I’m finding that the post writes itself, as it adjusts to each new thread added. It’s been a long time since I’ve enjoyed writing, as much as I have these recent essays and my other slower, more thoughtful writings.

I gather from a couple of people’s writings that David Weinberger’s after dinner speech at the recent Bloggers Journalist conference touched on the nature of weblogging and conversations, especially as it related to the style of our writings. For instance, he talked about how the typical weblogger writes daily and sometimes several times a day; that the entries tend to be short, and unedited, either before or after publication. Among the writings, conversations are fast — bang bang bang — weblogger A writes on a topic and B responds almost immediately.

Jon Garfunkel from Civilities, who attended the dinner and the conference, jotted down a transcript of the pertinent parts in a long response. He says of himself, then if this is the criteria he must not be a weblogger. We’ve been over this ground before, but I liked what he said on completeness. Of course, I would because it supports my longer works, such as the essays I’ve done recently on tags and digital identities:

Certainly, there is a great value in voicing incomplete thoughts. I tend to do mine over a glass of wine (or three, as the case was that evening). Or I just do it in an email, or, if I want to do it publicly, I go do it on the mailing list or forum or blog where a conversation has started. I have no angst about the fact that some of my online presence may exist on David Weinberger’s blog, or on the Personal Democracy Forum, or on the Massachusetts Democratic Future mailing list.

But I need a place to show off my completed work. I collect facts, I research; I find quotes, and I try to check them. I listen and re-listen to an audiofile to do the very first transcription. I visit the library to find offline books and old newspaper, I scan in images that have no online prescence of themselves. I’m not writing myself into an online existence, but other things, facts and totems which have no power of themselves to join into something greater: this is what goes almost each piece on Civilities.

If I have one caveat with Jon is that it seems he’s arguing on the side of long and complete, where David argued on the side of short and conversational. I’m right in the middle in that sometimes I feel short; sometimes I feel long, and can’t I have it both ways?

Yule disagreed with David, but her focus was primarily on the speed of posts and fast conversations:

Conversations don’t have to be fast, and besides: fast is always a competition, and when you start getting into competitiveness, you lose me. I can’t compete with you, or at least I don’t want to. Conversations, David says, are the lifeblood of weblogging, but the way “conversation” starts getting defined here turns that art into a competition. The conversation becomes a question of having conversations in comments, of having conversations with other webloggers, especially by linking to them profusely, and the goal is to have different perspectives in conversation with one another. That’s fine as far as it goes, but I feel that the problem is that you’re starting to define conversation as a fast-paced essentially inward-closing circle.

I can identity with this strongly. I have seen, time and again, where a group of people used to communicating with each other get into this loop among themselves, referencing each others writings so tightly that it forms an iron ring around the conversation making it virtually impossible for slower, or newer, voices to enter the fray. Yet, much of the conversations that happen in this context are ones that happen over and over again, because its the same people arguing the same topics–there is no entry of new blood, and new voices into the midst of the rapid fire postings.

But there is no tried and true alternative to this one, either, because if we all don’t want to post short bursts across each other’s horizen, neither do we all want to post long, slow to perculate, thoughtful responses. In fact, I think the two complement each other in that the longer responses tend to gather all the short bursts together; building stories around them that enables others to join into the conversation.

I guess I’m a fence sitter, post up my butt, about this conversation about conversation. Except for one thing: the importance of perspectives in our conversations and the mechanism that enables this–the link.

David Weinberger also talked about how in our conversations, different perspectives emerge and it is these perspectives, combined, that forms much of the objectivity around a topic in weblogging. You and you and I may have subjective views of a topic, but combined, we have an objective whole. How do we get the difference perspectives? Through links. Lately, though, linking has become more of a mark of favor than a sign of interest.

Rebecca Blood also responded to David’s talk, but about the statement he made on ethics (one speech, so many responses). She wrote:

First of all, publishing a weblog is not at all like a conversation between two people, it’s more like speaking in front of a room full of people–some of them trusted, some of them strangers–and having every word you say recorded and catalogued for future random retrieval. So that analogy doesn’t work.

Even if it did, honorable people do apply ethics to their conversations, most commonly the ethic of telling the truth to the best of one’s ability, not repeating a confidence from one person to another, and representing one’s friends kindly–or at least, fairly–when they are not there. In fact, I would argue that personal conversations work best when such ethics are in place: I simply couldn’t speak freely to my husband if I thought that anything I said might be repeated at work the next day, and I would have trouble confiding in a friend who, in my absence, just sat silently when I was being unfairly represented.

I can agree with Rebecca about weblogging — it isn’t a conversation between two people. If it were, it should happen in emails or on the phone, sparing us the idea that we’re outsiders being priviledged to overhear great minds in conversation. But she said something else that bothered me, in that we shouldn’t stand silently by when our friends are not being treated kindly, or are unfairly represented.

Should we then, only speak up in defense of our friends? Should we always speak up in defense of our friends? If so, how do we define ‘unfair representation’? If I’ve learned one thing in four years of weblogging, subjectively we all suck at being objective. So then, how can we have conversations, or even decent exchanges of ideas and opinions, if much of this is broken down into ‘friend’ and ‘not friend’, qualitified by subjective terms such as fair and unfair, kind or not?

I am especially attuned to this one because I have angered folks who I have never had direct contact with, only because I have been critical of the writing or actions of a person who they are ‘friends’ with. It wasn’t that they disagreed with my writing so much, as they disagreed with the fact that I disagree with their friend. Yet if our friends make outrageous or provocative statements shouldn’t they, then, defend themselves? Is the person being a ‘friend’ enough to discount the statements of those who disagree, regardless of the merit of the respective statements?

More, is it enough to discount a person in perpetuity because they have disagreed, either with ourselves or with our friends in the past? This strikes me as the height of intellectual dishonesty–the quality of our writing and the force of our words no longer matter: all that matters is who is friend and who is not friend.

And I don’t even want to get into the increasing parsimony of linking that is appearing, particularly in certain circles who weight all their conversations on the pagerank scale, before deciding who is worthy of a link or a response. Especially with that abysmal masquerade of a HTML hack, nofollow, aiding and abetting the increasing fragmentation of our conversations; giving ‘juice’ to those liked, and withholding it from those we dislike.

At least we can be thankful people aren’t refusing links to others, regardless of friend or foe status or quality of writing, just because some folks don’t include the full content of their posts within their syndication feeds.

Oh. Wait