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Burningbird Writing

Paths: The Book of Colors

Sometimes when I write, I’m trying to communicate – to start a conversation between you and me. Hopefully when I write these types of postings I build in ‘hooks’ that you, the reader, can respond to. Sometimes this works. Sometimes this doesn’t. Such is the life of a writer online.

Other times, though, I write something else. Something that is both more intimate and more personal. This writing might generate conversation, but that’s not the intent. This type of writing I do for me, though I enjoy sharing it with you, curious reader.

I started an online book for these writings, which I hesitate to call ‘postings’ because they’re stories, really. Stories, essays, journal entries, what have you. The book is called “Paths: The Book of Colors”, and it’s not really a book as you might know ‘book’; there is no true beginning, and no true end, other than those stories that describe beginnings and endings.

The book is really nothing more than simple stories about simple things, but it’s important to me.

Work on Paths is an ongoing effort, and currently contains some stories you’ve had a chance to read here at Burningbird. Well, ‘you’ is relative because some of these stories are older, and you may be newly come to this particularly neighborhood. Or you might have skipped these particular stories the day I published them. You might have been in a mood, and the story may not have met your mood. Or perhaps there were too many words and you were rushed. I hope you didn’t skip it because the writing wasn’t included within an RSS form.

Regardless, I hope you take a moment and glance through the book, even if it’s to tell me if you like the design.

I will be adding new stories from time to time until all the colors have been filled in and the book is complete. I’ll let you know when I add a new story. You’ll know when it’s complete.

The stories are unedited, though I have tried to spellcheck them. They’ll be full of flaws and fractures and broken and scratched grammar. But then, I’m writing about life, which can also be full of flaws and fractures, breaks and scratches. This is my gentle way of saying, yes, I am aware that the writing may be ‘bad’ and no, I’m not interested in editorial advice. I have worked on 14 technical books since 1996, all of which passed through a period of editorial advice – Paths is mine, good writing, bad writing, and all.

I hope you enjoy the book, and that you find the pages to be pretty. Most of all, I hope the stories included give you a moment’s peace in these difficult times. I know that writing them has helped me.

Paths: The Book of Colors

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Just Shelley

Wind chimes and pussy willows

My roommate hung wind chimes this last weekend, just in time for some of the windier storms we’ve had this week. I keep my window in my upstairs bedroom/office cracked a bit so that I can hear their gentle sound, interspersed with the songs of the cardinals, finches, and occasional red-winged blackbird. The geese have been migrating north, and it’s a real treat to watch a few flying past my window, honking, looking for a place to set down for the evening.

New leaves are peeking out of the furry buds of my favorite bird and squirrel tree, a pussy willow that’s across the street and in good view of my window.

Do you know the legend of the pussy willow tree? There are variations but the central theme is that a group of kittens were tossed into or fell into a river and started drowning. The mother cat ran to the riverbank and began to cry for her lost babies. The willows on the shores of the river felt pity for her, so they dropped their branches low enough to touch the water and scooped the tiny little kittens to safety.

According to legend, the spirits of the kittens so saved became transformed as tiny, furry buds, appearing on the willow tree every spring — a gift to the willows for their kindness.

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Writing

No Green for me

In between checking out the many different peace protests planned for the St. Louis area, trying to decide if I want to participate in a planned civil disobedience protest at the local Boeing plant, I remembered that yesterday was St. Patrick’s Day. Considering that I’m half Irish – really Irish, not the Kiss Me I’m Irish Irish – you might be a bit surprised that I didn’t flaunt the green. Well, to understand this, you need to know a bit of Powers clan history.

You see, my grandfather’s family left Ireland in the latter part of the 1800’s entering in the United States through Canada, where I still have distant cousins in the Novia Scotia area. Our first stop was in New Hampshire, specifically in the Portsmouth region where my grandfather met my grandmother, who happened to be a Pickering.

This could be a lovely tale of true love except for a wee problem – my grandfather’s family was strict Catholic and the Pickering’s were Protestant. In fact, the Pickering’s were old family in Massachusetts, old enough to be tainted with British blood, silver cup Protestant and all, but we don’t hold that against my grandmother. Over a bit of telling and a pint, Grandmother is as Irish as they come (ignoring all my distant cousins in Portsmouth).

However, when my grandfather married my grandmother, he pissed all sorts of relatives off, most of whom washed their hands of our family, on their way to their new home in Boston.

Now, my grandmother’s family wasn’t as opinionated about religion as my grandfather’s, but they thought my grandmother could do better than a shanty town Irishman. This is patently unfair because the Powers clan was good honest laborers, descended from Irish royalty. In fact, I still have distant cousins who work at the Waterford factory in Ireland. Instead of being shanty town Irish, we were lace curtain Irish I’ll have you know.

Regardless of the Pickering silver cup rejection of my lace curtain Irish grandfather, my grandmother was not a woman who liked to be pushed around and she married my grandfather over her family’s objections.

(I have a great deal of satisfaction in knowing that I resemble her to a great deal, including the green eyes, dark auburn/silver Celtic hair, and height – she was close to six feet tall and this is at the turn of the century.)

Still, it’s hard to make a start when surrounded by such disapppointment. The only thing for the newly created Powers-Pickering clan to do at this point was to move to the west and to become Episcopalian.

(Now, Grandmother wasn’t the only Pickering to move west. From what my father has told me, I have distant cousins all throughout the west, including one known to be a horse thief in Yakima. Dad said he was hung. Strung up. Hanged by the neck until no longer kicking.)

After moving to Seattle, my grandfather started a auto repair place in Seattle and he and my grandmother began a family consisting of four boys and one girl (who later became a Jehovah Witness). It wasn’t long after my youngest uncle was born that my grandmother died. This broke my grandfather’s heart and he turned to drink, eventually drinking himself into an early grave. My father and his brothers and sister were shipped out to various family members to raise at that point.

My father and one of his brothers spent a fair amount of time with one uncle who was a fur trapper, living in the back woods of Canada. My Dad liked the cabin, though he got a bit tired of the snow after a time. My mother still has the old snow shoes my father used to wear to get around in during his stay in Canada. Eventually, though, the family thought my father and his brother needed to learn a bit more than fur trapping, so he found a relatively permanent home with my great aunt, my grandfather’s sister, in Seattle.

Now, where does this all lead back to my not celebrating St. Pat’s day? Well, you see, I found out most of this history when another cousin removed was doing geneaology research as part of her conversion to the Mormon faith. She contacted the Irish Catholic cousins in the Boston area during her efforts, telling them of her conversion in the process. Well, this so offending that part of the family that they vowed never to have anything to do with those of us who gave up the Godly ways of the one, true church, to live a life of heathenish sin in the west.

Well, the Powers-Pickering clan isn’t what you would call overly sensitive or refined, but even we know a rebuff when we get one. We vowed to never darken their doors again, and rejected all aspects of our Irish Catholic heritage. Just the mention of St. Patrick or the wearing o’ the green and you can see the hairs rise on the back of any number of second, third, and fourth cousins necks. We’d sooner vote Republican.

So while the rest of you were doing your best to get drunk on ale and stout and green beer, and eating boiled dinner, and watching lithesome young maids dancing about, I was at home quietly refraining from any such nonsense, preferring to spend my time listening to the President.

And you can believe every bit of this story, because I’m Irish, and we Irish, we never tell tales.

Next time, remind me to tell you about my Welsh grandfather who could sing like a prince, and had magic in his soul.

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Just Shelley

Hurt the ones you love

I want to, need to, extend my apologies to so many people this week. I have been rude, angry, belligerant, and have done my best to push away those who I do count my friends.

Explanations would take too long and would only bore all of you. Suffice it to say that I’m very, very angry at myself now, which naturally means I’m taking it out on my close friends, such as Jonathon, Dorothea, AKMA and Margaret, Phil C. and unfortunately, too many others.

(I’m pretty sure I also took on most of the known Cluetrain, Small Pieces, and World of Ends readers – and most major divinity schools, too. That probably won’t work in my favor while job hunting.)

I’ll be back as soon as I found that beauty I promised you. Sense of humor, too.

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Writing

Doc and Dave sitting in a tree…

Recovered from the Wayback Machine.

Doc sent an email out to a bunch of folks this morning, pointing to a new work he and David Weinberger created, World of Ends.

Doc asked for comments. I sent them in an email, but then it dawned on me that Doc might actually prefer a link. I am a slow woman on Fridays. So here’s the link, and my comment:

While I may appreciate the eloquent writing, the strong beliefs, the reasoned arguments, as well as the hope as dewy as the grass beneath a young maiden’s feet as she trips about gathering in the cows to milk (are ‘cow’ and ‘milk’ bad words now?), I have to tell you my first reaction on skimming through this was:

Oh good lord what is this? A variation of “I’m okay, and you’re Net”?

However, I have been accused, a time or two, of being contrary. Not going with the flow. Breaking the circle. I will endeavor to read this again after I have a nice long walk, in the hopes of adjusting a deplorable tendency to say “but what does it mean?”. I will then be of a mind to bask in being an end-point, and to learn to believe in the power of the bits. (Well, before we blow ourselves to even smaller bits in war, that is.)

Thanks for the link, Doc.

Shelley

I will, of course, be treated the same as the fly that buzzes around the potato salad at a picnic: as just one of the nuisances to be endured when one has open food in a open eating area. Ignore, and continue the feast.

update 

The World of Ends has been slashdotted, which should be sending lots of buzz winging its way.

You really have to check out the comment thread titled “World Ends”. Funny insight into the Slash Dot phenomena.