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Photography Writing

Expect Nothing

Expect nothing. Live frugally
On surprise.
become a stranger
To need of pity
Or, if compassion be freely
Given out
Take only enough
Stop short of urge to plead
Then purge away the need.

Wish for nothing larger
Than your own small heart
Or greater than a star;
Tame wild disappointment
With caress unmoved and cold
Make of it a parka
For your soul.

Discover the reason why
So tiny human midget
Exists at all
So scared unwise
But expect nothing. Live frugally
On surprise.

Alice Walker, “Expect Nothing”

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Weblogging

Dear Trolls

Ducks say hi.

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Weblogging

‘ware strangers

Recovered from the Wayback Machine.

One of the most upbeat, nicest guys in weblogging is Joey deVilla, otherwise known in blogging and P2P circles as AccordionGuy.

Joey’s too nice a person to have this kind of problem. Glad am I that he escaped intact, but sorry am I at his disappointment.

I’m also thankful for Joey posting his story. As we put more and more of ourselves online, we should keep in mind that strangers as well as friends read what we write.

And not all strangers mean us well.

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Photography

On Poetry and Pictures

Recovered from the Wayback Machine.

The rest of us watch from beyond the fence
as the woman moves with her jagged stride
into her pain as if into a slow race.
We see her body in motion
but hear no sounds, or we hear
sounds but no language; or we know
it is not a language we know
yet. We can see her clearly
but for her it is running in black smoke.
The cluster of cells in her swelling
like porridge boiling, and bursting,
like grapes, we think. Or we think of
explosions in mud; but we know nothing.
All around us the trees
and the grasses light up with forgiveness,
so green and at this time
of the year healthy.
We would like to call something
out to her. Some form of cheering.
There is pain but no arrival at anything.

Margaret Atwood, “The Rest”

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I started pairing my photographs with poems I found on the Internet as a way of playing with the mood of the photograph, and to discover new poems and new poets. It is fast becoming a favorite hobby, and is very effective at relieving stress, anger, and sadness. (Which is why I found myself spending a lot of time with it the last few weeks.)

I’ll look at a photograph and write down my first impressions of it: what it means to me, why I like it or not, and what I was trying to say with it when I took it. From this, I’ll gather select keywords and use these to search for a poem at a site, such as Plagiarist or the Academy of American Poets. I’ll wander about through the results until finding the poem that best connects.

For instance, the Margaret Atwood poem was, fortuitously, in the list that resulted when I searched for the keywords for the photo of the fence. Since I had recently been exposed to her work, hers was one of the first I read, and it felt right for the picture.

When searching for poems for my second photograph, below, another Atwood poem appeared, which clearly demonstrates something. When I find out what it is, I’ll let you know. Regardless, I fell in love with this poem and it was the perfect one for the photograph.

Now, if people ask, “What does the photograph mean?”, I can answer, “Read the poem”. If they ask, “What does the poem mean?”, I’ll answer, “Look at the photograph.” I no longer have to explain myself, and can hold my inner thoughts secret, in plain view.

I would like to watch you sleeping,
which may not happen.
I would like to watch you,
sleeping. I would like to sleep
with you, to enter
your sleep as its smooth dark wave
slides over my head

and walk with you through that lucent
wavering forest of bluegreen leaves
with its watery sun & three moons
towards the cave where you must descend,
towards your worst fear

I would like to give you the silver
branch, the small white flower, the one
word that will protect you
from the grief at the center
of your dream, from the grief
at the center I would like to follow
you up the long stairway
again & become
the boat that would row you back
carefully, a flame
in two cupped hands
to where your body lies
beside me, and as you enter
it as easily as breathing in

I would like to be the air
that inhabits you for a moment
only. I would like to be that unnoticed
& that necessary.

Margaret Atwood, “Variation on the Word Sleep”

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Weblogging

Habitual blogging

See what I did? I got back into the discussion of women in technology and women in technical conferences, and I didn’t want to. Not again. But I saw a few trigger words and bammo, there I was, back into the fray.

Bad self. Bad, bad self.

Too few women in technology and speaking at conferences is an important topic and conversation, yes; but it’s one I’ve been involved in too many times in the last several years – in this weblog and elsewhere. It seems it always comes back to us. The women. Why don’t we just submit more proposals? Why don’t we attend more conferences. Why don’t more of us just enter the field? Why don’t more of us make a difference in the field?

What is our problem?

Obviously, I don’t have the answers. I never will. Instead, I’ll leave it in the capable and motivated hands of people like Liz to continue the battle.

And I’ll write about something I have more of a chance to influence. Like the US policy in Iraq.